Everyone should change
To be someone they’re not
Being okay with yourself will forever be a malicious thought
To live vicariously through the ones that we idol
To always be striving, but never get out of the spiral
My waist must be smaller, my legs, and arms too
Praying to God to make me look brand new
On my knees, forever in tears
I wonder if God was ever here
I need validation, from everyone I meet
Then maybe one day, I can compete
As I look down at my growling stomach
I would rather fall from hunger
Then shake this feeling of rejection
I fill myself with anger
Because my body is the reason I will never get affection
Teenage boys don’t care about personality
If you believe differently, you’re living within a false reality
What they want is someone blonde-haired and blue-eyed
Skinny as a twig
But does not have a mind
They want a girl who is barbie
But settle for humans
Standards are so high
They continue to confuse me
I want what they have
Would trade my soul for a spot in the show
Five or ten minutes and then I could go
I wonder what it’s like
To be treated like God
Is it unlimited happiness?
Or is it all a facade?
I wonder what it’s like
To be treated like those girls
A whole different world to explore
I will never be treated like I am God
My outward appearance is not a facade
I look in the mirror and begin to cry
Because my outward appearance doesn’t match any of the people who live better lives
I want to accept it, but I don’t think I can
I want our bodies to match so I can finally stop feeling lesser than
When I look in the mirror, I do not want to cry
I want to look like the girls who live better lives
They have all the attention they could possibly need
Have every guy wrapped up in their sleeve
They are charming and gorgeous
Yet always have those high pitched voices
They look in the mirror and feel as though they could do anything
Don’t focus on flaws, because there are none to be found
Look at their stomach, and never let it growl
They are so free of social confinement
Get whatever they want as a gift of their beauty
I want to be beautiful
By social expectation
Would I receive the same?
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