A lot of people like those movies. Don’t even realize the shit that’s getting stuck in their brains. So when I tell them, they think I’m murderous, scary, and going to hurt them. They believe what they see in the movies is real. They think what they think they know is what is the definite answer. They think, but they don’t know. Nobody knows. Nobody ever believes that those characters, at least their basics, are real, so when they find out they are, they freak out. They think those murderous rages or psychotic episodes where people flip their shit are dangerous and happen constantly. They think that knowing one piece of your story changes everything they know about you. They think the 2008 reboot of 90210 where that one girl flies off the handle and breaks everything in her house like four times is what its like. Or Midsommer when that bitch doesn’t mention her sisters name but mentions the fact that she’s Bipolar right before they show her sister murdering her entire family by hooking up an exhaust pipe to her parents bedroom and her mouth. Or the great amazing star making film, Split, that was nominated for four prestigious film awards. The film is about someone with multiple personality disorder where the man not only is a murderer but also can shapeshift into his different personalities. Split personality disorder is nothing like BPD, but guess what they think of the second you say that. Personality Disorders are the best for horror though right? Depression and Anxiety are too pussy for film and TV, so they think of a disorder that is scary, horrific and apparently dehumanizes you if you have it. It makes us villains. That’s why we don’t tell anyone. That’s why no one gives a fuck about the person they knew before they heard the word Bipolar. They don’t know anything and honestly are okay with being ignorant as long as they're safe, right? Physically safe? I’ve never seen anyone with my shit try to hurt anyone other than themselves and people who try to stop them from hurting themselves. And maybe, just maybe if they took a minute to see that we don’t want to be villains so badly that we just want to die. We have to keep that shit a secret because if anyone finds out our everything is over.. I am very aware not everyone is like this, but goddamn it feels like the whole world is against us and nobody gives a fuck. You don’t want us to be okay with it and live with it because you don’t even know what kind of ways there are of coping with it, or that there's different types and not everyone has the same experience with it. Some people are able to deal without medication, but there is medication and there are therapies and ways to be okay. My doctors said that I will most likely be taking three pills twice a day for the rest of my life, but hey whatever I am “normal” now, right. Do you even know what DBT is, or CBT for that matter. Having Bipolar Disorder does not equal a death sentence and is not untreatable, but you don’t know that right? You can't even understand us, because you don’t want to because why would horror movies lie, right? Why would they even make so many if it wasn’t true. I don’t know, but it’s not. Diagnosing a character with Bipolar Disorder is stronger than whatever other disorder you can think of. Makes a more compelling argument for why people should be scared I guess. Who knows. Just know that just like everything else in your media, you’re probably being lied to so might wanna check your sources because fuck hiding. I’m done.
A lot of people like those movies. Don’t even realize the shit that’s getting stuck in their brains. So when I tell them, they think I’m murderous, scary, and going to hurt them. They believe what they see in the movies is real. They think what they think they know is what is the definite answer. They think, but they don’t know. Nobody knows. Nobody ever believes that those characters, at least their basics, are real, so when they find out they are, they freak out. They think those murderous rages or psychotic episodes where people flip their shit are dangerous and happen constantly. They think that knowing one piece of your story changes everything they know about you. They think the 2008 reboot of 90210 where that one girl flies off the handle and breaks everything in her house like four times is what its like. Or Midsommer when that bitch doesn’t mention her sisters name but mentions the fact that she’s Bipolar right before they show her sister murdering her entire family by hooking up an exhaust pipe to her parents bedroom and her mouth. Or the great amazing star making film, Split, that was nominated for four prestigious film awards. The film is about someone with multiple personality disorder where the man not only is a murderer but also can shapeshift into his different personalities. Split personality disorder is nothing like BPD, but guess what they think of the second you say that. Personality Disorders are the best for horror though right? Depression and Anxiety are too pussy for film and TV, so they think of a disorder that is scary, horrific and apparently dehumanizes you if you have it. It makes us villains. That’s why we don’t tell anyone. That’s why no one gives a fuck about the person they knew before they heard the word Bipolar. They don’t know anything and honestly are okay with being ignorant as long as they're safe, right? Physically safe? I’ve never seen anyone with my shit try to hurt anyone other than themselves and people who try to stop them from hurting themselves. And maybe, just maybe if they took a minute to see that we don’t want to be villains so badly that we just want to die. We have to keep that shit a secret because if anyone finds out our everything is over.. I am very aware not everyone is like this, but goddamn it feels like the whole world is against us and nobody gives a fuck. You don’t want us to be okay with it and live with it because you don’t even know what kind of ways there are of coping with it, or that there's different types and not everyone has the same experience with it. Some people are able to deal without medication, but there is medication and there are therapies and ways to be okay. My doctors said that I will most likely be taking three pills twice a day for the rest of my life, but hey whatever I am “normal” now, right. Do you even know what DBT is, or CBT for that matter. Having Bipolar Disorder does not equal a death sentence and is not untreatable, but you don’t know that right? You can't even understand us, because you don’t want to because why would horror movies lie, right? Why would they even make so many if it wasn’t true. I don’t know, but it’s not. Diagnosing a character with Bipolar Disorder is stronger than whatever other disorder you can think of. Makes a more compelling argument for why people should be scared I guess. Who knows. Just know that just like everything else in your media, you’re probably being lied to so might wanna check your sources because fuck hiding. I’m done.